| you took shrooms and realized you want to be with me. the night you told me, i was so happy. but now, i'm so scared. i thought i was so sure about you, but now i'm unsure. we've done this so many times before, and it didnt work. i dont want to be hurt again. please dont hurt me again. i'm afaid you'll leave me for her, because she's having your baby. i dont know if i can trust again, but i want to so bad. i need your reassurance, and your patience. show me that we can make this work. i'm sorry that i'm so afraid. ////edit. you smooth out my fears so easily, and i believe every word you say. there is still doubt, but time will remove it. i'm glad we're taking it slow this time. you said you'd wait forever for me, but i wont make you wait that long. i can already feel my wall crumble. last night we played hangman, 337 miles apart, but we still played together. little things like that make me love you again. 
i want us to get back to this. these were the happiest days i can remember. |
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| we talk daily now. he said i still know him best, and he misses what we had. i want him. i want him. i need him. i'm trying not to get my hopes up, but that boy knows his way into my heart. 
 
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| memory 38467: we were laying on my bed. my head on your chest, your arms holding me tight. you told me you loved me, and that you wanted to be with me forever. i remember smiling, promising you that we'd always be together. we talked about having a family, even though i dont want kids. i promised you that we'd have atleast one because you wanted to be a dad so badly. i understood, it made me love you more. i believed every word we said. he's having a baby, but with her. he doesnt love her and she doesnt love him. he's scared and regretful. she's just scared. he's probably going to jail for this, and she cant change anything. he told me that he wants to take it back. he said he never should have left me. i agree. 
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| So what did you do those three days you were dead?
'cause this problem's gonna last more than the weekend. ray is trying to convince me that moving to sweden with my dad is a bad idea. he says that moving will ruin stephanie and i's friendship. i'm not too worried about it. if he wanted me to stay for him, i probably would. but right now, my heart is set on living in sweden with my dad. it's probably the best thing i can do. if i stay with my mom, i'm going to fuck my whole life up. i'm afraid i wont be able to control it. 
just tell me you love me. i'll stay. |
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| we were one. what are we now? 
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